Greatest Need: An Answer to Veejei's Tag!!!

Stumped, Vanessa. Grrr…For someone who feels indifferent about most of the things and lives his life in balance, this question bites, hard! For readers, my friend and colleague, Vanessa tagged me back with this question: “What is your greatest need?”

This really left me confused the whole day. Even as I write this entry and starting the second paragraph, I still am not sure with my answer. Let me tell you why. Ever since I can remember, I always wanted everything in balance and moderation. No, I’m not a hypocrite, and believe me; I had my share of waking up in the morning after some wild night out gimik, with no memory of how I got home. What I meant was to consider the repercussions of your actions before acting upon on it. Still confusing. Again, I’m not saying to go all Yin Yang on everything and make sure everything you do is equal. Where’s the fun in that? What I’m merely insinuating is that if you’re very good at something then you have to acknowledge the fact that you are obviously bad with things. I was never impressed with my classmates who needed hauler trucks to carry their shiny medals and academic distinctions come graduation day. You’ll easily beat me with calculus and accounting but will you be able to use that in the real world? Yes, but not all the time. Reality check: the world ain’t fair! Nowadays, you’ll probably get beaten up just because you’re smart and knows how airplanes fly. Now, if you can incorporate your intelligence with everyday living and you know who Zahara, Pax, Maddox, and Shiloh are, then you, my friend, deserve the Timothy B. Relucio One-Hand Salute.

As I’ve said, my outlook in life is total indifference. Nothing is really definite in this world and most things are dispensable. Change is inevitable, and you have to keep with it. So, with that kind of thinking, do I really have the answer to my tagged-back question? Have I answered anything? No, but I probably raised a lot of eyebrows for sounding like a jerk.

351 words and I’m more confused with what I’m writing. Writing that paragraph just made me look bad, a minor epiphany of sorts. This would be easier if I was asked what my greatest want is, as wants are simpler to think about and more often than not, you won’t need it to survive. I can just say that my greatest want would be a trip to the Hampton’s with Sophia Bush with the whole family and being served Caramel Macchiato and Brazo de Mercedes. Shallow, it may seem, and it probably is. So I’ll just conclude this confusing excuse of a blog with this quote:

“What really matters is what you like and not what you are like! Books, records, films...these things matter! Call me shallow! It's the f*cking truth! And by this measure, I was having the best date of my life!!”
-Nick Hornby from High Fidelity
Companerong Nick hits it hard, right there. Amen, my brother. My friend Cy and I lived our college life following this principle. I mean, would you really enjoy a date who talks about toothpaste caps and DNA, doesn’t know the latest Rihanna hit, thinks Harry Potter is an exchange student from Holland, knows Lindsay Lohan but thinks that she’s this good little girl from that Disney movie. Even the geekiest of dweebs have culture; not your regular social butterfly, but at least they can co-exist with other bugs. In the end, it’s different strokes for different folks. No two person is the same, so are their personalities and beliefs, which I know, matters!

So, from what I’ve ranted, I mean, written from above, apparently, materials, sex, treasures, undeniably, is a part of me, but I don’t really need it, and I can survive perfectly fine without them. So what do I need most: life itself. Those situations in movies where the character thinks he’s destined for something great, sometimes I do feel the same way. I have no plans of changing the world; I just think it needs me. I need to be living in order for more Tim to go around…Hehehe!

Veejei, I hoped I did justice with my answer. Actually, I don’t think I really answered your question, but I tried…Hehehe! Good one, this one. You made me think, and it’s rare that I do. Hahaha! Now, the payback part. I’m tagging Monette, Gurl, and Ter with this question: “In the end, who will you choose, the one you want or the one you need?” There’s a fine line between want and need, somewhere. I guess….